Death and bereavement are two of the most emotionally grueling events that anyone can endure. There is no template or playbook to follow to get through it. Everyone deals with loss in their own way and in their own time. Per Country Now via the Dumb Blonde podcast, country singer Craig Morgan, 61, talked about that subject recently with Jelly Roll's wife, Bunnie Xo, when he was a guest on her podcast. He was searingly frank about how his teenage son Jerry's tragic death in a boating accident nine years ago affected his faith and his relationship to God.
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Morgan said something profound that puts it all in perspective. "I think when you question God, your faith grows because he educates you."
Morgan's Belief in God, Despite the Painful Loss of His Son, Is Still Solid
He told Bunnie Xo, "I can't say that I was mad at [God]. I would not question the question like, 'really God?'As a Christian, I really thought, I mean, I know I made mistakes, I've done things wrong, but I thought I was doing pretty good. You know, bad [expletive] shouldn't happen to you...not the way it works though. As I worked through all that, I realized God was never punishing me. He never was this, and I don't believe in one second that God took my son. I believe the devil did it. And I do know that God could stop him and he didn't for some reason. And what I have to accept is that that happened."
Many Questions Defy Answers
Morgan added, "A lot of people seek out the reason why God let that happen. Was it so that all those kids that got baptized after my son died would get baptized? Was it because of this? Was it because of the charity that was established in his name that's going to help all these kids? Is it going to affect that? I don't do that. I can't because you'll chase that [expletive] forever and all you're doing is looking for justification and for me, there is no justification. He's gone and that's it. My youngest said it, we just have to live with the [expletive] for the rest of our lives and we miss him. But my faith in God will not waver."
The Singer Memorialized His Son and His Own Feelings in a Song and a Memoir
Morgan's poignant song, 'The Father, My Son, and The Holy Ghost," dropped six years ago. He also wrote a book, God, Family, Country: Soldier, Singer, Husband, Dad—There's a Whole Lot More to Me. About the track, he said, "When I wrote that, I never had any intentions of anyone ever hearing that song. We released it to the platforms. We didn't even go to radio with that song. We didn't go to radio. It became the number one most downloaded song in the history of music."
The book, which came out in September, chronicles Morgan's colorful experiences "working with the CIA in Panama and combating sex traffickers in Thailand as an undercover agent," per the outlet. And of course, his bountiful success in country music.
